If you’re reading this, chances are you know this feeling.
Feeling like despite everything you have going for you, you’re in a rut. While on the outside things might look fine, deep down you aren't particularly excited about anything or anyone in your life.
You go through the motions to get through the day, hoping that it’s all leading somewhere better, somehow.
Many people would look at you and say you’re successful. You are a high-performer, a Type-A personality that knows how to get things done. You might have a great deal of achievements and possessions that you dreamed about and worked to get for a long time.
Yet at the end of the day you find yourself asking, “Is this it? Why do I still feel this way?”
I know this feeling because that was my life.
At the time, anyone who looked at my LinkedIn profile would have said I was a success. Yet on the inside, I was burnt out from running myself into the ground physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I was struggling to fit myself into a high-pressure, corporate environment, and unsure of what I wanted for my life. My days were filled with unconscious motions (although they looked like the status quo). I was working, drinking, eating, working out, going out; lather, rinse, repeat. I was disconnected and too numb to feel it.
I wanted help, but I didn’t know where to turn.
That disconnect affected every aspect of my life. At my lowest, I had no energy; everything felt like a struggle. I had little excitement for the future, even though in outward appearances I was “living the dream.” This feeling pervaded my work, my social and dating life, my thoughts, my body, everything.
In the worst of times, it truly felt painful just to exist… even though I was earning a comfortable living and had all of my basic needs met – a privilege I didn't take for granted.
I didn't know what I wanted because I had everything I thought I wanted.
All I knew was that I wanted to stop feeling this way.